I wish that I'd had some light bulb poker moments lately to write about. You know, the moments that you finally 'get it', and exclaim "A-HA!" loud enough to scare little children and small dogs yelp in fear.

I don't.

I wish that I could say that I won a major online tournament with a first place prize worth $30,000, and that I was going to finally buy that puppy/car/Vietnamese Mail Order Bride that I've never needed buy always wanted.

I can't. So sad.

I wish I could say that I've been consistently plugging along on Doyle's Room and Party to be able to pay my way to the June WPBT out of nothing but winnings, making it a literal freeroll.

But...I...wait, I can say that! That's exactly what I've been doing.

If not for an unforseen heating bill, and an unbelieveably high electrical bill, I'd be almost to my goal for raising the $1500 for Vegas bankroll in June. After pulling out some of this to pay for the flight/hotel, and the above bills, I'm sitting at about 1/3 of the way there. $1500 may not seem like a lot to many of you out there, but you have to remember that I don't play anywhere near the limits that almost everybody else does, and I'm downright frugal with my poker money.

If there's one thing that I am, it's terrible with money. If I have cash, I'll spend it. And more than likely, I'm going to spend on shit that I don't need but definitely want, like shots at the bar. Or porn. Save it? For what, a rainy day? HA! Now you're just being silly.

But, if there's one thing that poker is teaching me, it's a little bit of restraint in regards to how I use my money. I know that to build a bankroll, I can't go tossing around money all willynilly if I want to continue on with this game, I have to sit back, be patient, and wait. And then wait some more. The only thing better than spending money, is spending other people's money.

Can you believe there's only two months until Vegas? The only two things I need to accomplish in that amount of time is build the bankroll, and get my chickenshit self down to Canterbury for a few live sessions. That's it--nothing more, nothing less. I still can't believe that I haven't been down there.